Me? Isit me? or Am I him? or her? what am i? Nothing? =/

To all those who knows me.. I am deeply sorry and I apologize all these while for knowing me.....

I know I am not perfect.. flaws are everywhere.. I know I hurt you people..

Most importantly... I hurt myself the most.. why? because I hurt you all....

For doing so... can I punish myself in a world of despair ?

I can't... Please help me understand myself... trying to find a ME in me.. is never possible.....

I eat sleep and do all ridiculous things trying to fill my time.. trying not to think of all the nonsense..

But what the heck.. I end up.. the same.. faking smiles.. faking myself.. faking who i am.. trying to

be a better me? No... i deserve nothing.......... I keep spoiling your moods... I keep being me..

That is why i condemn myself for being me... Never in my mind I would like this to happen....

But its happening again.. me? who? what? why?







The Answer: Don't ask..... Don't bother... Don't need to know me... Just leave me... I deserve this....

Realising....

I soon discovered....

Life is changing constantly as day by day events pass.....

To a direction where I no longer know where it will lead to.....

In the end.... I wonder what will be waiting for me at the end of the road......

If i could predict the future.... I'd choose not to know......

Maybe I should change some things about myself... I don't know....

Life is confusing.... Why bother trying when it is going to be useless.....

Give up? Maybe I should.... As long as everyone is going to be happy.....

As long as everyone is happy... Being sad alone... wouldnt be harmful...

I should start to release and let go of things....

Thats the best solution... letting go..