Me? Isit me? or Am I him? or her? what am i? Nothing? =/

To all those who knows me.. I am deeply sorry and I apologize all these while for knowing me.....

I know I am not perfect.. flaws are everywhere.. I know I hurt you people..

Most importantly... I hurt myself the most.. why? because I hurt you all....

For doing so... can I punish myself in a world of despair ?

I can't... Please help me understand myself... trying to find a ME in me.. is never possible.....

I eat sleep and do all ridiculous things trying to fill my time.. trying not to think of all the nonsense..

But what the heck.. I end up.. the same.. faking smiles.. faking myself.. faking who i am.. trying to

be a better me? No... i deserve nothing.......... I keep spoiling your moods... I keep being me..

That is why i condemn myself for being me... Never in my mind I would like this to happen....

But its happening again.. me? who? what? why?







The Answer: Don't ask..... Don't bother... Don't need to know me... Just leave me... I deserve this....

Realising....

I soon discovered....

Life is changing constantly as day by day events pass.....

To a direction where I no longer know where it will lead to.....

In the end.... I wonder what will be waiting for me at the end of the road......

If i could predict the future.... I'd choose not to know......

Maybe I should change some things about myself... I don't know....

Life is confusing.... Why bother trying when it is going to be useless.....

Give up? Maybe I should.... As long as everyone is going to be happy.....

As long as everyone is happy... Being sad alone... wouldnt be harmful...

I should start to release and let go of things....

Thats the best solution... letting go..

During MLH class =.=

Yes... like usual class is boring as usual during tutorial in MLH.. heh.. and we started eating lollipops provided by Miss Kaesandra.. lol. thanks~ XD (it killed some time >.>)

Yesss~ me and BJ lol.. :D

Then we decided to take a group of pics while sucking those delicious lollis.. :D

:D Look at them sucking so happily during class =="

And then something happened...... Naqi seemed to be too hyper during class....... and this is what happens..................

The one in pink... (Naqi.. went all hyper... lol)

Damn sweet... lol.. Teoh and Jace in love.. =X
(and Kaes jealous so that is her finger =.=")

Hmmmm.. that is what we do during MLH tutorial... for today... lol.. its because there was a presentation at that time.. I didn't do it on purpose~! Its just that... it was boring... :( lol

Someone... hypocrite? Or is it just him? =/

Hmmmm well the story begins with me meeting this guy when I first arrive in Malacca, I was greeted by 2 person, Mr. Adrian which is my current good mate and the other Mr. X =.= The reason I am introducing this guy as "Mr.X" is because i find no good reason to talk bad using his real name. The truth is, my first impression towards him was good, unfortunately as time passes... within 5 weeks.. all his bad habits were revealed... for example....

I will list it down in accordance :
1. Forgetting to flush his own deposits after using the facility provided in the apartment.
2. Using people's things as well as instruments without permission (Pity Adrian)
3. Always using people's laptop when Mr. X is bragging about his so called very expensive laptop.
4. Suspected for stealing Mr. Adrian's own water + Milo + Coins (to refill water).
5. Besides that he has one special habit, which is to deny something HE DID and not confessing. After revealing the truth he starts to say sorry and its his fault. (what a loser)
6. I just dislike him talking behind my back and I seem to be able to find out. (moron)
7. Acting nice infront of you while backstabbing you when you're unaware.

I'm done listing down the colourful habits of Mr. X, now tell me how would your impression be towards him?

Sounds all cruel and super bad? And wanting to advice me to look at the positive side of him?

NO THANKS >>>> THERE IS NO GOOD SIDE OF HIM IN ANY WAY I SEE IT!

Well that says it all... my colourful sentence and words about the "best" person in my apartment.
Oh yea One more thing.... He burnt the ironing board.... denied that he did it.. insisting that he switched off the iron after using it.... and saying he is confirm 100% positive he didn't left the iron on and burnt the ironing board.... BUT GUESS WHAT... HE ADMITTED IN THE END... WTH IS WRONG WITH THIS MORONIC HUMAN... well... apparently brain damage or some kinds of thing might have hit him... or he's just plain ignorant in life about others. Being selfish and full of himself without thinking of others.. pathetic thinking.. *sigh*

Finally~! Lets pray he doesn't get worst as time passes... Life's gotta move on... =/

Class canceled....

Like always.. Classes are being canceled more frequently these days... Whats with the lecturers?
Probably wanting free salary flow... Such a pain in the a** :D

Well getting ready for the 2nd class which was replaced due to its cancellation the day before..=.=

I hate life with canceled classes... (Good students are always so hardworking :D )

Back to Uni life..T_T

Yes.. finally reached Ixora Apartment around 9pm.. sigh.. stupid public bus.. waited in the bus for 40 mins before it starts moving... =.= I really need a car here.. too bad.. too poor to afford one =/

Well... apparently my dear room mate.. Wen Yick.. waited for me till 9pm just to teman me makan.. :D and Jo as well.. (I'm touched >D)

Normal life begins... study sleep wash clothes eat.. attend classes.. and yes finish up homeworks and assignments.. nooooo~! Just 1 1/2 more months and I am free for another week.. crap...=="

Who wanna go out with me? sobs... lol.. all busy people these days.. with new environment.. comes new life.. with new life.. comes new friends.. with new friends.. comes new lifestyle... with new lifestyle.. comes new diet and many more...bla bla bla.. =/

Plans that didnt work out after all...

Planned to hang out on Friday with jk and kat.. but guess what.. as usual.. plans always turn out wrong. *sigh*

Planning not to plan any more outings starting from today.. let us all be random till the day we die~~ Lifeless days when I'm on my Sem break... Hate it... Boredom.. Emo-ness and many more emotions that have ruined my entire holiday..

Well, College is starting soon.. Back to my daily routine >>> Sleep-eat-go to class-sleep-eat-back to class-and the routine continues till the day i graduate... =.=

Interesting hmmm... well.. at least I can add an additional activity to it... >< Jo you're the one.. kekeke... lets go yum cha every night.. to make me feel better..(you better be reading this.. XD)