Me? Isit me? or Am I him? or her? what am i? Nothing? =/

To all those who knows me.. I am deeply sorry and I apologize all these while for knowing me.....

I know I am not perfect.. flaws are everywhere.. I know I hurt you people..

Most importantly... I hurt myself the most.. why? because I hurt you all....

For doing so... can I punish myself in a world of despair ?

I can't... Please help me understand myself... trying to find a ME in me.. is never possible.....

I eat sleep and do all ridiculous things trying to fill my time.. trying not to think of all the nonsense..

But what the heck.. I end up.. the same.. faking smiles.. faking myself.. faking who i am.. trying to

be a better me? No... i deserve nothing.......... I keep spoiling your moods... I keep being me..

That is why i condemn myself for being me... Never in my mind I would like this to happen....

But its happening again.. me? who? what? why?







The Answer: Don't ask..... Don't bother... Don't need to know me... Just leave me... I deserve this....

Realising....

I soon discovered....

Life is changing constantly as day by day events pass.....

To a direction where I no longer know where it will lead to.....

In the end.... I wonder what will be waiting for me at the end of the road......

If i could predict the future.... I'd choose not to know......

Maybe I should change some things about myself... I don't know....

Life is confusing.... Why bother trying when it is going to be useless.....

Give up? Maybe I should.... As long as everyone is going to be happy.....

As long as everyone is happy... Being sad alone... wouldnt be harmful...

I should start to release and let go of things....

Thats the best solution... letting go..

During MLH class =.=

Yes... like usual class is boring as usual during tutorial in MLH.. heh.. and we started eating lollipops provided by Miss Kaesandra.. lol. thanks~ XD (it killed some time >.>)

Yesss~ me and BJ lol.. :D

Then we decided to take a group of pics while sucking those delicious lollis.. :D

:D Look at them sucking so happily during class =="

And then something happened...... Naqi seemed to be too hyper during class....... and this is what happens..................

The one in pink... (Naqi.. went all hyper... lol)

Damn sweet... lol.. Teoh and Jace in love.. =X
(and Kaes jealous so that is her finger =.=")

Hmmmm.. that is what we do during MLH tutorial... for today... lol.. its because there was a presentation at that time.. I didn't do it on purpose~! Its just that... it was boring... :( lol

Someone... hypocrite? Or is it just him? =/

Hmmmm well the story begins with me meeting this guy when I first arrive in Malacca, I was greeted by 2 person, Mr. Adrian which is my current good mate and the other Mr. X =.= The reason I am introducing this guy as "Mr.X" is because i find no good reason to talk bad using his real name. The truth is, my first impression towards him was good, unfortunately as time passes... within 5 weeks.. all his bad habits were revealed... for example....

I will list it down in accordance :
1. Forgetting to flush his own deposits after using the facility provided in the apartment.
2. Using people's things as well as instruments without permission (Pity Adrian)
3. Always using people's laptop when Mr. X is bragging about his so called very expensive laptop.
4. Suspected for stealing Mr. Adrian's own water + Milo + Coins (to refill water).
5. Besides that he has one special habit, which is to deny something HE DID and not confessing. After revealing the truth he starts to say sorry and its his fault. (what a loser)
6. I just dislike him talking behind my back and I seem to be able to find out. (moron)
7. Acting nice infront of you while backstabbing you when you're unaware.

I'm done listing down the colourful habits of Mr. X, now tell me how would your impression be towards him?

Sounds all cruel and super bad? And wanting to advice me to look at the positive side of him?

NO THANKS >>>> THERE IS NO GOOD SIDE OF HIM IN ANY WAY I SEE IT!

Well that says it all... my colourful sentence and words about the "best" person in my apartment.
Oh yea One more thing.... He burnt the ironing board.... denied that he did it.. insisting that he switched off the iron after using it.... and saying he is confirm 100% positive he didn't left the iron on and burnt the ironing board.... BUT GUESS WHAT... HE ADMITTED IN THE END... WTH IS WRONG WITH THIS MORONIC HUMAN... well... apparently brain damage or some kinds of thing might have hit him... or he's just plain ignorant in life about others. Being selfish and full of himself without thinking of others.. pathetic thinking.. *sigh*

Finally~! Lets pray he doesn't get worst as time passes... Life's gotta move on... =/

Class canceled....

Like always.. Classes are being canceled more frequently these days... Whats with the lecturers?
Probably wanting free salary flow... Such a pain in the a** :D

Well getting ready for the 2nd class which was replaced due to its cancellation the day before..=.=

I hate life with canceled classes... (Good students are always so hardworking :D )

Back to Uni life..T_T

Yes.. finally reached Ixora Apartment around 9pm.. sigh.. stupid public bus.. waited in the bus for 40 mins before it starts moving... =.= I really need a car here.. too bad.. too poor to afford one =/

Well... apparently my dear room mate.. Wen Yick.. waited for me till 9pm just to teman me makan.. :D and Jo as well.. (I'm touched >D)

Normal life begins... study sleep wash clothes eat.. attend classes.. and yes finish up homeworks and assignments.. nooooo~! Just 1 1/2 more months and I am free for another week.. crap...=="

Who wanna go out with me? sobs... lol.. all busy people these days.. with new environment.. comes new life.. with new life.. comes new friends.. with new friends.. comes new lifestyle... with new lifestyle.. comes new diet and many more...bla bla bla.. =/

Plans that didnt work out after all...

Planned to hang out on Friday with jk and kat.. but guess what.. as usual.. plans always turn out wrong. *sigh*

Planning not to plan any more outings starting from today.. let us all be random till the day we die~~ Lifeless days when I'm on my Sem break... Hate it... Boredom.. Emo-ness and many more emotions that have ruined my entire holiday..

Well, College is starting soon.. Back to my daily routine >>> Sleep-eat-go to class-sleep-eat-back to class-and the routine continues till the day i graduate... =.=

Interesting hmmm... well.. at least I can add an additional activity to it... >< Jo you're the one.. kekeke... lets go yum cha every night.. to make me feel better..(you better be reading this.. XD)

Finally a pic of me in MMU.. (kinda) =P

Yes~~ A picture at last... =P Hmmmm Not really anything to reflect about MMU... but at least i was in the campus at that time =P

@@ yea me and Jo~! My saviour~~ =D

2nd pic.. for the day.. *sigh* so hard to get pics these days... and its dark =.="

YES~!! It was 1am at that time... last minute editing for my presentation for the next day >.<
Took this pic while walking back to our apartment~ hmmm.. thats all for today :D
Always last minute work these day... thanks to Jo i was able to finish it up in a few hours... XDXD
(thanks Jo again :D Love u~)

Hmmm... Postponed Classes...=.=

*sigh*

Guess what? =D I woke up super early just to find out my class was postponed till next week.... Wasted my effort not to skip my class.... what a waste... lecturers these days.. making me have bigger and bigger eye bags.. T___T can anyone tell me the cure to my beautiful eye bags? Hmm...

Had porridge for lunch -.- since Jo wasn't feeling so well..... (I think) lol.. after i came home from lunch.. guess what.... Adrian haven't had his lunch yet -.- Which obviously mean.. i would have to teman him.. since i like being the good guy.. =P

Went down this time.. and I watched him eat..=.= No class till 6pm.. as usual.. lame timing.. making me doze of everyday... if this continues... I'm gonna be a real pig.... sigh... life here is really different.. oh yeaaa.. and I bought M&M only to discover it was missing in the hands of Mr. Gan and Mr. Sukdip.. LOL.. ok la i offered.. but even if i didnt.. they will still take it from me.. T.T cruel life facts of my classmates (all monsters) =D

Finally.. I'm back... =D Life in Melaka >.<

Hihi... I am back into the world of blogging... >.< (Its not because I'm too free or anything, its just because I wanted to tell you all out there how fun is Melaka.. XD ) Hmmm... Firstly... My place where I'm staying currently in Melaka is kinda good. Good housemates, nice roommate and also a nice place to stay (since its beside the college) haha.. Staying alone now, washing my own clothes o.o and yea... lepaking at night ... (bad influence) The good news is that I managed to control myself from going out late at night these days. Most of the time 'studying' and also not to forget.... MAPLE + DOTA oops.. yea i added the latest game.. MAPLE.. I know its a 2D game.. and outdated.. what to do.. melaka is full of nothing.. XD (no offense to melakans) Oh oh oh.. Not to forget.. I tend to go home to Selangor every week.. =D Anak taat usually like this.. hehe.. >.>

I'll be uploading pics of me in Melaka soon.. =D hopefully.. heh.. thats all for this evening.. going out to have dinner soon.. tata~

Valentines day~

Heh.. Happy Valentines Day~!! >.< (although I'm single.. I still have the right to hang out...XD)

Hellooo~ =D Listened to the compulsory 5 hours driving course crap today.. =D finally.. LOL Boring like hell i know =D But what the heck, finished that rubbish d.. this friday taking undang test.. *sighs* Now only taking =="

Hmmm i rushed straight to the bus stop .. literally walked and ran there weh.. =.= at 4pm.. and then reached petaling street at 5pm.. took the LRT at Plaza Rakyat to hang tuah station... reached at the TS at exactly about 5.20pm =/

Sadly.. I discovered that Kat was already at PAV.. And i took the monorail to TS..=.= damn membabikan.. LOL.... Met up with Kat, Edward, Kean something.. LOL.. >.< and YS =D...at coffee bean in Pav.. lol Afterrr that... ed and kean left lool straight after Jk came.. tsk tsk this jk ada fp la.. halau ppl.. XDI took pics with kat while at coffee bean~~ but... I look superly weird and not as usual..=.=

I look weird weh...=.=

hmmm after we went to 7-11 to look for playing cards... to play chor dai di..=.= kat the addicted player.. LOL....

we went walking around after that since that dumb 7-11 there didnt have any playing cards.. pathetic...lol... went to pav meerkato..<< supermarket laaa.. xD.. then bought the most expensive playing cards.. =.= despo ppl.. lool...

i bought chips with jk =D... then went and to meet up with Wai Yuen.. lol.. infront of Madam Kwan's =D We ate there as well.. loool not bad food laaa.. =P I added 1 and a half bowl of rice XDXD


Pics at Madam Kwan's.. lol.. =)

Walked around pav.. ys went home earlier....but we took extra pics in Zara and around pav =D

There.. done. LOL.. (happy ar kat? =.=)

Anyway... today as for valentines day.. it was fun being a single anyway.. =D
Thanks to all those who came for valentines with me that day also~ =)
And KL very dissapointed that u didnt come lar.. lool.. but u owe us alot weh.. =D make sure dun ffk d... =X..

Thats all laaa... =/ No more updates after this.. XDXD LAZY LA.. TOOK ME 1 hour for this.. T.T Cannot imagine all bloggersss... the gengness in blogging.. Lool~

o.o Photography~~

Yea, I have this sudden interest towards photography.... hmmmmm... Its a must to learn photography... at least... till the average level~~ ....

oo yea.. i was inspired after my friend sent me a url.. of his friend.. who is a photographer.. student i think >.> anyhow... I wanna learn~~ It looks super damn cool..~ anyone care to teach?

haha... I shall self learn.. =D Who wants to be my modelo~ XD I shall start off with the enviroment.. and then proceed to humans~~ hehe.. gimme time though... .

SUPPORT ME WEH.... T.T lol... i shall publish some of my effects err... after I'm good at it.. LOL

I'm back.. with a bad mood =.=

Hello.. and yes.. as the title reads "I'm back with a bad mood" =.=

I reached home today... at 10am.. guess how early i took off from Butterworth....

And yes... when i got home.. tired and yes the suddenly stomache illness strucked me....

Jeffrey did invite me to his open house today.. but guess what... i was sick till i slept..=.=

That was ironic... when i woke up.. it was.... almost 7pm... decided don't have to go anymore..

And btw.... i was suppose to go to JK's hse.. but ended up.. he had to go out... thats why...

I was at home.. and yes.. my mood swing was affected by that..

Therefore, for today blogging isn't gonna help me anyhow ... making me more depressed..

everytime i recall about this stuff.. it gets worst.. and worst.. and eventually....

I get fed up and yes.. i emo the wholeee day.. EMO...~! Gimme a break guys....

Its not my 1st time being dissapointed.. it happened to me many times b4... and yes....

It sucks... as history keeps repeating itself... I seriously should migrate somewhere

Far from here... permanently.. I suppose its the best move... Coming back to

Kl is just not for me anymore.... staying till May.. and thats it.. I'm leaving..

Thats all of my emo story for today.... enjoy yours.. while i keep mourning over the past...

Eve of Chinese New Year~~

Happy Chinese New Year sin~~ lol

Today, reunion dinner~~ weeee~~ fooooooood.. XD

Anyway.. I wont be updating my blog for about a week.. =S

Cuz i will be far far away during CNY ..~~ lol...

Remember arr.. dun go bai nin without me~~ REMEMBER...~!!!! =D

hehe... Nth to write d.. XDXD have fun collecting Angpaos =D May ur luck be better this year~~ HAVE FUN~~ XD

Chocolates~~ =D

Yes.. C.H.O.C.O.L.A.T.E.S =D

My all time favorite snack... =) If you didn't know, chocolates are healthy.. that is why I eat them everyday and still, not grow fat.. (Don't be jealous ><) Today... Woke up at 2am.. couldn't sleep and then decided to walk downstairs and scavenge for some food.. =D Found "ba gua" and I ate some crackers XD .. Still.. I couldn't sleep.. decided to eat CHOCOLATES ..LOL I know.. its insane.. but still it works for me =D Here are the chocolates in my FRIDGE =D

Yeap... yummy~ XD

This one^ I recommend u all to get this~~! Its damn gooood~~

Oo yea, I had ferrero's as well =D loool... All those above.. are recommended chocolates by me for people who just wanna eat chocolates for fun =D

Thats about it XDXD I wanna show "some" of my chocolates.. there's still more I hope =X


P.S~ The Belgian one.. really is nice... go and buy it now ..XD

Learn alot today =)

Hello~~ heh...

After the previous post... I managed to bug kat into teaching me while she was working in her office >.< haha...

Today I managed my blog.. customizing it and adding features to it... and if you would notice, its practically green in color... XDXD Yes i admit.. Green color is my life =D

Added this and that and yes... I am grateful to kat for teaching me.. (although she said she wanted to slap me at some point) LOL >.> How short tempered my teacher is... =P

Today practically did nothing after learning to customize my blog... haha.. had dinner out today -_- and alsooo.. dota-ed almost the whole day for today..

SO YES! Another meaningless day besides this new blog of mine... again I suppose tomorrow would be the same =(

BUT Chinese New Year is coming in a few more days~~ Which means only one thing.... $$$$$$$$ XDXD

So all of you out there who celebrates CNY.. I would like to say.. HAPPY CNY IN ADVANCE =D

Finally back =D

I completely suck at blogging.... T.T
Anyway.. I apologize for the crappy post i had earlier.. (more like an essay =.=)
Hmmmm currently life is boring... as i tried looking for jobs and initially i kept failing =.=
But~~ I'm still looking... =)

Btw.. I have nothing to write now.. so yea... thats about it.. LOL (this is so crappish) =.=

Anyway.. I really need a teacher to teach me this world of blogging thinggy =P